Thursday, 11 August 2011

August...

4th of August...

The day it all ended and started.. Had an argument with Sayang before berbuka together.. It turned out ok after dinner and talk.. So I assumed things will get better after this.. Slow but better.. However, at 10pm, Sayang suddenly changed.. He was talking about not being able to accept me at all anymore.. Its the end.. But I could not accept it.. I had to do something.. He won't answer my calls.. So I went all the way to his house and threatened to stay outside all night or until he talks to me face to face.. He was out but came back with a really angry face.. We argued but I didn't cry.. For the first time.. I had no choice because I have to tell him what I want.. After awhile, he finally cool down and we hugged.. It was the best hug I have ever had.. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else but in his arms.. I was so sorry.. I would not want to lose him again.. Anymore! Things got a lot better after that.. Even if something happened along the way, I don't mind, for as long as I have my Sayang..

Weekend was packed.. Cleaned up and wash some clothes.. I break fasting with my parents. Sis was not around as se had a charity event to attend.. I went shopping wit Sis on Sunday for about 2 hours before heading to Restaurant Puteri in Kg Sungai Penchala with Sayang.. That night I break fasting with Sayang's family (his Mom, Brothers, Sister, Cousins and Friends).. We met Erra Fazira there.. She was so tall and beautiful.. Her kid was so cute!

Monday.. 8th August.. MC.. I went to see doctor early morning before heading to Empire Subang for facial appointment at 1pm.. I stopped at Cotton On for some shopping.. After facial, I went straight to Sayang's place.. We were supposed to break fast together.. Just the two of us.. And we did.. It was great.. I missed spending time with him..

Wednesday.. I went to Yang's house for Terawikh and Tahlil.. Her dad just passed away on Monday (8th August).. So many SU's student there.. However, I did not have the energy to talk to everybody.. So sorry.. I didn't mean to do that.. I was just exhausted.. I will make it up next time..

Tonight.. I was supposed to go for early sahur with Sayang.. Kuey Tiaw Mali!! I like.. I wonder whether the plan will proceed as he has dinner with his old company colleagues.. I am sure it will take long.. A lot of things to talk about, I'm sure.. Well.. I just have to wait then.. If not, next time I guess..

Tuesday, 2 August 2011

Hmmm... Photos...

Hmmm.. I think I need to start adding photos to my blog since now only I decided to finally start blogging.. I have no idea how long this hobby will last but I intend to make it permanent.. Memories which will always be there even when my laptop decided to turn its back on me..

Should I start putting up the photos from the past? Or should I put up current photos instead starting from today onwards? Hmmm..

Tough choice.. But as of now, I think I will go with the second opton.. Past photos will be included along the way when I decided to reflect memories of the past.. I am sure of that..

Today.. No photo.. Yet..

Monday, 1 August 2011

Sad.. Sad.. Sad..

Month of July is definitely not a good month for me.. More sadness than laughter..

It all started with my aunt (Ibu) going into the hospital at the start of my long annual leave beginning of the month due to stroke.. First tragedy.. Hence, my whole holiday was dedicated for her.. Kind of sad but I don't mind at all.. It is a sacrifice I am willing to give.. She had been the greatest aunt a niece would ask for.. Both my family and hers had been so close since even before my mom got married.. She was even the first person to meet my Sayang.. I rather tell her about him first compared to my mom.. She always know what to say or do..

When I reach the end of my holiday, the second tragedy took place.. My Sayang broke up with me.. I couldn't get him to forgive me at all.. Haih.. I wouldn't disclose why and how it happened but it did.. There is nothing much I can do except for keep hoping that one day he will forgive me and come back to me.. I definitely will not give up as I know he is the one for me.. I may get heartaches along the way, which I already starting to but it is worth it.. I will stand right where I belong and prove how important he is to me..

After two weeks, I am back in office, but only for 2 days training.. After that, me and my girl friends from high school went to Redang for a 3 Days 2 Nights trip.. It was a great and wonderful trip.. Manage to get things out of my mind sometimes.. But not all the time.. But I am glad I went for the trip.. It opened my eyes to a whole new level.. Teaching me to appreciate the love I had.. That drives my determination to persue the things I want in life even if it drowns me in the end.. Because it is worth it.. At least I tried and there's nothing to lose..

The holiday then followed by a 3 days training.. Gosh! Tiring.. No time to rest after I got back from Redang.. Nothing much I can do but just bare with it as I know I will have time to rest after that..

That fantasy didn't last long.. I spend my whole friday afternoon in the hospital with my cousin and uncle.. My aunt was still hospitalised but has already opened her eyes.. To all of us, it was a good sign.. However, on the way back, my cousin called.. She said that my aunt was in a critical condition and just waiting for time before she leaves us.. I picked up my whole family and hang around the hospital until midnight.. Her condition did not change..

Next morning, while sending my car for repairs, my cousin called again.. This time she said its worst and she can feel that the time is near.. Half hour later, I received another call from her.. Before I answer the call, I already know what she is going to say.. It is something I am afraid to listen to.. She is gone.. Ibu is gone.. There were tears in my eyes but I didn't cry like I normally do.. I just couldn't even though I feel like crying.. Once the car is ready, Ayah and I headed straight to the hospital..

We reached earlier than Mama and sis.. I couldn't bare to see my aunt's face at first.. But when I finally did, I started tearing.. Its so sad.. The funeral was settled by 7pm.. We had "tahlil" at night.. After that, my sis and I decided to spend the night there.. Next afternoon was another round of "tahlil" before all of us go back to respective houses.. That night itself I can feel the lost of my beloved aunt.. She will always be remembered.. She will always be in my heart.. All of our hearts..

The first day of Ramadhan is lonely without Ibu.. Especially for my cousin and uncle.. Ayah accidentally donated all our important documents.. Haih.. Another headache.. Bad things just kept on coming.. I wonder when will it stops.. Its so hurtful..

Friday, 8 July 2011

2011...

January...

New year was fun.. Came back tired and missed my colleague's birthday party.. So sorry.. Then.. The peak starts.. Life as an auditor.. Hectic, Stressful, Tiring, Disappointing, Happy, Sad, Satisfied, Doomed.. Nothing much I can say anymore until the day I leave..

February to June...

Horrible horrible horrible peak.. I feel like dying sometimes but life has to go on.. Just had to bare with it..

July...

I was so excited to go for my first diving trip.. Take diving licence.. But.. Everything is just a dream.. Nothing much I can do now.. Money burned.. But I am glad I did not go for the trip.. My aunt got stroke just a day before the trip.. And currently in coma.. Breathing through machine.. 2 of my aunt stayed over for the past 3 days.. My cousin just came yesterday from Dungun.. Other relatives come and go.. Everyday without fail we will pay her a visit at the hospital.. Praying.. I hope she gets better soon.. We are still hoping for it..

Tonight...

There is a surprise birthday celebration @ C&B.. I can't wait to see the birthday girl's face when she walk into the restaurant.. She thought that it is our friend's hen night.. :D Till then.......

Monday, 1 November 2010

Exam over...

Exam over... It is time to go back to work... I am so not looking forward to it...

The Exam
The paper was tricky... It may seemed easy but some questions are so confusing... Argh! I just hope I will be able to pass it... This is my final paper... I don't want to screw it up and repeat again...

The After Party
After paper, I decided to invite some of my colleagues to drink... For most of us, it was our final day of exam before we start work on Monday... I had my dinner at Mont Kiara with Mr R... Wanted to go for the Boston promotion but was too tempted to go to One Utama since Ms M.Y. said there was October Fest promo... However, when we arrived, Mr P. said that the promotion is over... So... Mr R and I decided to chill out at Laundry first... Our plan was not until 10pm... It seemed like a great idea at first but... Everything turned out differently... When I reached my 10pm appointment, I was already too happy... I was so happy that plenty of people showed up... Thanks guys! Especially my 2 brothers and his new girl... To Mr S... Thank you for showing up even though you have class the next day... Also to the 2 beautiful girls that were so difficult to convinced... For DUKE owners... You guys are awesome as always... I love you guys!!! For the others I met that night... HI!!! Nice meeting all of you...

Seafood BB
Nothing much happened today... I spent time with Mr R... It was fun even though we didn't do much... The night ended beautifully with a stomach full of Seafood BB... Yummy... Had a great dinner with Mr R, Mr F and Ms S.Y... We then plan to visit Opera the next day for Halloween... Cool!!!

Halloween
I spend some time with my family before heading to Changkat... It was awesome!!! Leona Lewis and The Veronicas were there... They were amazing!!! Then... As usual... We will end up at our crazy spot... Werners!!! Even though most of us were not there, I had loads of fun... Naughty Nurse definitely something extra... Naughty Cat were drunk and I was so scared of Scary Clown... It was so sad to find out that Scary Clown lost his mask... It was a great mask... Man in Mask as well as Sexy Lady were so cute together... White Angel was having loads of fun with the Vampire... He was awesome as always... Thanks for wanting to bring the camera! I will upload the pictures soon...

Ms S.L. birthday party
I went back home to send my sister off to Manjong... At night I attended Ms S.L. birthday party... It was nice since I haven't seen most of my Uni friends for a really long time... I am so sorry guys!!! We shall meet up more often ok??? I hope you like my present Ms S.L.... Yes, it was last minute... Because I myself forgot to bring my own wallet... Luckily Mr R. was there... Hahaha...

Overall... Awesome weekend...!

Tuesday, 26 October 2010

New Life... New Memories..

I suddenly feel like blogging again... But I want to start fresh... So I deleted all my old post because from this moment forward, all the post inside here are the ones I want to remember... There is no point looking back at the past... I don't want it to affect my life... I have a new life now... I want to cherish every single bit of it...

My status now:...

Work?
I am still an auditor... I have been working for almost 3 years now... This coming February would be the month that I will complete my 3 years working experience... However, my bond with KPMG does not ends until June 2012... Gosh! So stressful... It is going to be more stressful soon! Argh!

Studies?
I am currently studying for my last CPA paper which is due this thursday... So I am on my study break now... It is killing me as I do not want to fail the final paper...

Family?
My family is great... Everyone is busy with their own work and activities...

Love?
I have a boyfriend whom I love a lot! He is a wonderful guy and I couldn't ask for anyone better than him... Life is wonderful when he is around... I am glad that he understands and accept me for who I am... I wouldn't want to change anything about him too... If he does want to change... He change because he wants to...

Friends?
Well... It is hard to keep in touch with everyone... But as usual... I am definitely trying my best to make sure that I keep in touch with everyone... If not... Soon... Sorry... I know I have been a very bad friend...

As for now... I need to study... Wish me luck!